dear Diary
I'm afraid if I allow myself to be happy even if it is for only a tiny percentage that I did not survive. _.

Dear Dad.
I am disappointed and hurt by you
You left me and my mom when I was 3 years old.
You hate me. I hate you too.
and I miss you very much.
I let yourself go. I do not need you.
and never come back with me.
I never want to see again
Mama said you wanted to go.
Now connection is with the tears.

"Give me a reason to live because of the it would be worthwhile for me to continue"
"I Love You"
"That's not enough"
"I love you what can I say"
"That you interesiert no other girl and you prefer to remain alone than without me"