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2.Oktober.2007

So this is it:
You are gone and I am back in Germany, I was waiting for you to call me from London, but I am sure that you didn't get a chance to or something. Because I know you love me and I love you and I will wait till you call me when you get home. Right now I am just watching TV. I am just relaxing and in a couple minutes I have to leave the computer so that I can change and take care of my red eyes before Bianca gets here.... *haha*
I love you and I can't wait till I get to hear your voice.
- Kisses Katharina

I love you

2.Oktober.2007 -again

Alright here an internet adress that is going to show you a movie of Toms show.

here you go: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VKGYAf0wLzg

I love you and I am sure you will love it....!

3.Oktober.2007

Hi Honey,
well today was the first day I had to wake up without you next to me for three months. Urgh, I did not like it too much, but as you see I survived it. When I went to take a shower I turned on the radio and guess what was playing!? -Ruby Ruby Ruby.... I turned it off.
Next thing was to call you and your voice made everything ok and I knew I would survive today. I looked forward and if you believe it or not the day went by fairly fast. *happy be*
At the 3 o'clock my sister and I went to the movies and watched Ratatouille, a really fun movie and I still think you should watch it with Abbey. You know sometimes younger sisters really aren't that annoying. Mine actually is really awesome to me right now. Annika just knows that I need her to be a good sister right now and I am glad that she is there.
Bianca called while we were in the movie, so I called her back right after. She just wanted to see how I feel and that made me feel ok, it gave me the feeling of having someone who cares. As where Co seems to give a crap. I don't want to be unfair to her. I did not expect her to come visit me or anything, but a call would have been nice and I might tell her that. While you were here she said a lot of stupid things, and I just ignored them because you were here and nothing but you mattered, but now I have to think about and I ask myself if she is a real friend or not.
Supper was nothing great just some GERMAN noodles with sauce, but Annika and I really weren't hungry after all that popcorn and chips at the movie theater. *haha*
We hung out all day and it was good, I was thinking about asking her of she wanted to have a sister's day once a month..what do you think about that idea...? I mean she doesn't have a bf anymore and I am pretty lonely right now too, so why shouldn't we stick together a little more?
Our TV night was fun, first we watched some show called "Looking for son in law"- you don't have to worry none of them were of any interest for me. *haha* Then we watched Freaky Friday, didn't I make you watch that one day?
Ok enough to read for you tonight!

Kiss Katharina


it was so cute

I smile for you... <3

4.Oktober.2007

Day 2 of not waking up next to you. I hated it but I will make it and when I get to wake up next to you on christmas it will feel even better.
This summer was the best ever, I got to just be with you and show everyone how much I love you. *smile* We did so many fun things, remember the day we drove all the way out to Tom's first concert? The weather was nuts and I couldn't believe how slow I had to drive on the Autobahn. It was a great day/night after all.
I wish the summer wasn't over yet... I just wish we would have had a couple more weeks. Of course I would have cried just a much, but I would have gotten to finish showing you Regensburg and its beautiful area. I am sorry you had to miss out on that.
I just had to think of the day we went to the Bird place, your face had a smile on it I really really loved and I could just see how much you enjoyed this day. You didn't have to say anything, your eyes were just glowing. Then I took you summer sleding and I think you liked that a lot too. Not as much as the bird show though because sleding no one tried to take me down. *haha* Uh and it was so cold in that cave, I am sorry we never went to a concert there!
Next time you come here I want to show you more of Germany...really I am sorry. You were here for so long and we didn't even go anywhere....I wanted to so bad but then time ran out!
Even though I survived the morning fairly well my timer after school shouldn't be too good. I had planned to be perfect, but I am not at all. I had written down what I wanted to get done today, but I barely did anything. I suck! But I just couldn't ... urgh I hate days like this, I could have needed you, just to be able to put my head on your shoulder but you are not here, so I couldn't. I miss your strength that makes me be so strong. God damn it I need you and after your phone call I knew that you need me to. I wish I could have just gotten on a plane and jet set to you. You need me and I want to be there when you need me. I know I sang your song and you seemed to feel a lot better but I didn't get to look in your eyes to make sure you really are ok.
Enough writing.
I survived today and I will survive tomorrow because I believe in US.

Kiss Katharina

P.s. Your voice lets me live!

5.Oktober.2007

...or day 3! It's been the third day without you and it sucked just as bad as the other days. Maybe even more. I don't know what's wrong with me. I know I can be string and I know I can do anything I really want to but at the moment I seem to be just unable to live my life. Life just kinda happens.
Look at today... I wanted to get up early to be perfect, but I totally overslept, even missed the first class of the day... SHIT! I definetly did not mean to do this. And then I barely paid any attention in school, I just couldn't. I hate this because I need to focus on school so bad!
O and the patience I had with my sister for the last week is gone too and I really can't wait till my parents are back home. I could really use a hug from my mommy and my daddy. This week has just been too much and I need this weekend to recover so bad!
My friends, they seem to all let me down, except for Bianca. She is there, talks to me on the phone every day. I don't want to write down all the stuff that happened with my friends, but I don't have the impression as if some of them even care how I feel or if I am lonely. People in school, I don't even know that well ask me how I am and if they can do anything, they tell me hey it isn't that long till you see Joe again and that makes me feel ok. But friends whose present I could really use right now let me down when I need them the most.
Ok whatever, maybe today wasn't too great but tomorrow is a new day and I got the chance to do better than the last couple days, I can reorganize my life.... and get my thoughts in order!
I love you and that is what keeps me alive, the fact that I will see you christmas gives me the will to survive the time without you!

With Love Katharina


I bought myself flowers today to make it all better... <3

I love dots and my mom is back so I am better!

6.Oktober.2007

... day 4 without you. I think I am getting better in surviving without you.
I woke up at like ten, I had planned to get up at 9.30am but 10 was still pretty good.
I didn't change out of my pj's till like 3pm...*lol*, well I had to work, clean the house and all that shit and I didn't feel like taking a shower twice today. After I was done with work for the day I sat down at my desk and finished your surprise while I watched some TV, but then all of a sudden I had that thing in my head going on making me not wanna be at home for a little bit, so I called Toni's house and yeah well you already know the rest of the story, and maybe you are right maybe I should just step back from Co and them for a little, see if I can find new and better friends... !? But you know I kinda like them a lot. O well.
Then finally the time had come and my mommy and my daddy stood in the door, you don't even know how glad I was to have them back. As soon as my mommy hugged me I told her how much I missed her and basically started crying!!! She told me to just leave Co and them alone, maybe they are just a little annoyed by me, but ok...well I will see what comes. We went out to eat and talked through out dinner about all the things that happened within the last week. Back home we all sat down in front of our big Tv and had a fun night. The house seems to be alive again! ->I love my parents. They told me to definetly say hi to you! (I think they miss you... *haha*)
I am able to look forward to tomorrow and I think I am making good progress at the moment. We might go to the movies or have a game afternoon or something like this. And my dad said that he would help me to make bday invitations!
So you see I am taken care of tomorrow and even though I know you don't like it too much that you have to work on your house I am glad you guys do, because it gives you something to do and keeps you busy! And when you look at your house when you are done you have something to be proud of.

Kisses Katharina

P.s. I miss you but I am ok NOW!

7.Oktober.2007

... mommy and daddy are back home and today we got the full family program... *smile*
Ok so getting up without you was ok today I am getting better... *proud* but I think knowing that my mom and dad would have breakfast with me in a little bit helped me get out of bed, today just didn't seem depressing at all from the moment it started and I think that this is good.
We all got up really late (my parents had a really crappy bed while they were on vaca and said that they needed it.... no problem for me... *lol*) had breakfast together and then just kinda got our own stuff done. I did all my homework and was ready to leave the house real soon. We went mini golfing and I don't know why, but I did pretty good at it... *haha* me the one who hates it! It took us forever because it was good weather today and the place was just freaking packed! After we went out to eat and talked a lot, we just had a good time! I love my family and I wish you were still here... that would make everything just so perfect!
Back home I finally got to show them one of the new board games "Manhattan" and they liked it...I think you would too! Next time you come we can play it!
Talking to you on skype today was good, I think I am ready now to do everything like we usually do it when we are apart, tomorrow I want to go and mail you a package...don't even try, I won't tell you what's in it! =)
I hope you had a good time at the cook out, I will got to bed now and be ready for a new day tomorrow!

Kiss Katharina

P.s. Please don't forget about how much I love you and be careful in anything you... you what could have happened yesterday and I wouldn't know what to do without you!


Life can be fun and I want you to have fun... <3

Sometimes you get a chance to change your life...you have this chance every day! <3

8.Oktober.2007

... it's nuts you have already been gone for about a week and I can't believe I even survived one day without you. Sometimes I wish I didn't especially last week without my mom and my friends letting me down was no fun, it was hell.
Today has been an ok day, just not long enough. I had school till 4 and when I got home I just wanted to take a shower and go to bed. But no way, studying was waiting for me like always, and I decided, that I have to get more organized and I will start right tomorrow! *yeah* =)
Honey I love you more than anything else in the world and I wish you were here because you gave me a strength while you were here I lost as soon as you were gone, I don't know why but while you were here school was even fun, I did my thing and when I got home I knew that no matter what happened today you would be there. I miss you
=( but you know that.
Today on the phone I don't know what the hell was wrong with me, I jugded things had no right to judge, but you are right and I am just trying to look out for you because if anything happens to you I wouldn't know what to do, I swear I would drop out of school to come and take care of you... I love you! SO MUCH
Today had one good thing though, in my lunch break I went out to eat with Co and we talked and I guess we are all better now, I mean I am still sad that she wasn't there last week when I needed her so much but we are fine again, and that makes me feel a lot better. i think it also gives this week a good start.

Kisses Katharina

P.s. Sorry that this isn't too long, but my bed is so nice and warm, I just wanna cuddle your pillow and go to sleep!

11.Oktober.2007

... O man well I haven't written anything for a while.
Well, today was ok. I had only 4 classes and wasn't too tired after. I cam home and decided not to do anything for school this afternoon, because I am pretty sure there isn't anything going to happen tomorrow. We will see.... "No risk no Fun"!
When I got home I had lunch and went upstairs to clean my room, of course I didn't end up cleaning my room at all, I was on my computer all afternoon long, but it was good. I didn't play, I did some stuff for the office and did the math for how much money I get from paying you and shit. > I told my dad tonigh to pay off my flight. *proud*, because that means, that I can start saving money for the next flight. (or shopping)
After I did this I cleaned out my email account and deleted a ton of old emails... some from Andy, I read them and it was funny, becaus they were about how much he loves me and bla bla bla, he never really did, I still think he just wanted me as a trophee! Whatever it is over and you are all I want.
By the time I was done with all this it (I also took a new fun pic, please look to the right) it was almost time to leave for the yearbook staff meeting! I got in the Smart and went to pick up my friend Paty, you know her, she is the one we went to the army base with.... =)
"my sister has a SUV"    *haha*
The yearbook staff meeting was really good and successful because we weren't a lot of people and this way we were able to decide a lot without one million discussions! *puh*
I don't know why but I signed up to do a lot, I guess I just want this yearbook to be good, it is nothing like American yearbooks, but I still wanna have a some what good one. I took my Oxford High School one, just to get some ideas and it brought up a ton of memories!
And it made me think of Oksana, I miss her it was fun to have her around and to save her from her house and her family... *lol* I just can't seem to get in touch with her because she deleted her myspace account and never answered any of my emails! *sucky*
As soon as the yearbook meeting was over I jumped back into my Smartie and went to pick up Toni, he seemed tired but as soon as we left his apartment he woke up. We went to the weird old looking bar we have been to a couple times when we hung out with all of them. We shared some fries, talked and waited for Co and Ina, but they didn't come, so we gave them a call. Two minutes later we sat in Toni's car and were on our way to start Ina's car... *haha* she was waiting to pick up her mom from the gym and while they were sitting in the car she played with all existing lights and had the seatheating on high.... > the battery died.... =) (I think it is funny)
The problem was solved and we went back to that bar had a coffe and talked for a little.
But of course you were the highlight of my Day, you always are REALLY! No I loved talking to and I especially enjoyed talking to you for so long tonight even though there wasn't too much to say, but I know you tried and to be honest you did good. I love hearing your voice and if you believe it or not.... I hear it all night long while I am sleeping *happy be*
Enough for tonight, I know I wrote a lot but I kinda had to make up for the last two days.

Kisses Katharina

p.s. Thanks for reading!


The Fish.... <3

sometimes it seems as if it is over...

15.Oktober.2007

Hi Honey,
well I don't really know what to tell you because what I need to tell you I would never write down here.
My day was ok, I got a new haircut and got a lot of stuff around my room and life done.
I am not in a writy mood... sorry.

Kiss Katharina

19.Oktober.2007

It's been a while I know but today I am already up really late and tomorrow is Saturday so it is ok if I am tired all day!

Well today is my birthday and I liked it a lot my party was a full success I think, at least we laughed a lot. But now let me tell you about my day, because we barely got to talk... I was so busy. =)
Ok well my day started good, because I got to wake up with hearing your voice, that was a great feeling REALLY ! Thanks, a good birthday present.
My family sang for me when I got out of the shower, I had to take one in their bathroom, because ours was getting fixed and it was really funny. This birthday song did not sound as if there are three people singing but more like five. =)
After this I went and got ready so I could go downstairs and have a cake at my birthday table... and guess what my mommy decorated it all like she used to when I was young and that was great to see, all those colours made me wicked happy! I unwrapped my present, got your 20 roses and had a piece of cake.
My dad gave me his fancy car (Smart Roadstar) and that was fun, I drove to school and the day went by pretty fast if I look back on it, but while I was sitting in school, it seemed as if this school day was a snale! =)
When I got home I had lunch, "quick cleaned" my room and went tutoring, it was really good today and went by fast. The family even got me a present, wicked nice body wash and two candles! Nice mh?
Back home my mom was already stressed out to all extend, I came in the door and she was already yelling, that we had only 2 hours left and that's why we are in a huge rush! Of course we made everything in time just fine.
The party was a success and we laughed a lot and had fun. We did some art and I think what we did is something we could do with Abbey, I'll explain to you what it is on the phone if you want to!
Wow, you don't even know how much work cleaning up after a party is. It took me quite a while even though three of my guests helped me.
Now I am sitting here in bed and I wish you would be here because that would make this day just PERFECT! I love you so much and can't wait to see you!

Kisses Katharina

P.s. I will tell you about the presents on the phone if you want to. Uh and winter started here today, it is so feaking cold outside!!!
I wish I could kiss you right now.


Yeah today was a good day!

the doggies and horsies I saw and want =)

21.Oktober.2007

Puh, this was a day. I slept so damn long and I really didn't plan on it either. Well after that I had breakfast...bla bla bla!
My plan for the day was to sleep till like nine and then get a ton of stuff done, but o well it all went different and that's why I am going to plan each of my day trough now. I just can't forget half of the things I need to do anymore, especially for school!
So let me tell you the Circus Krone was so much fun tonight and I wish you could have been here, because I know you would have loved it. Next time you come we'll go do something real special.
I miss you honey and we'll talk tomorrow.

Kiss Katharina

P.s. I am sorry if all this seems so confusing...but I guess I am tired.

22.Oktober.2007

Puh, I am wicked tired...!
Today was so exhausting and I dont even know why!
But today I realized how cold it is outside and that made me think of how much more I miss the summer and that made me miss you even more. Honey you are all I need and want and I wish you were here or I was there sooner... because that would make me really happy!
Maybe we'll do skype and I get to see your face later because I could really use that even if I risk missing you more than I already do.
summer has been way too short!
Kiss Katharina

P.s. I stopped writing because I wouldn't make you feel good if I kept going!


honey we have to walk on our own path!

My heart beats for you

23.Oktober.2007

today was definetly a better day than yesterday, even though I am sick now and I slept all afternoon! *haha*
I had my English test in school and I am pretty sure I sucked at it.  *urgh* but we will see.
I was gonna go out with Tony and Co tonight but since I was sick and got dismissed from school I stayed home and watched all my shows...=)
My mommy made us pancakes for suppor and I thought that was pretty good!
You see I am in a good mood and I can't wait to talk to you when you get home from work...which takes awfully long today =(
I still miss you but I am better today.... I really am! You know what I thought about what I wanna do when I am over there and I figured out that I don't even care what we do as long as I get to be at 80% o my stay together with you.... I dare you if I am not... I will be all mad.... =)
BUt you don't work for Robbins no more so I can be sure that you have the whole weekend for me   just for me     haha
Uh now I am all excited and I just can't wait to see you but it is not too much longer is it?
Uhm and how do you like your countdown calender? I really didn't know what to write down on it besides the numbers so I hope you don't think it is too silly!

Kisses Katharina

24.Oktober.2007

Hi honey,
well today was pretty good even though it started so bad. Well I got up and took a shower and after this I felt so sick like never before! *urgh* so I laid down for a little longer in my bed. I was late but I went to school, proud be!
I called you to wake you up, but I had the impression that you were already up though... mh! O well I'll give it a new try tomorrow! *haha*
Ok so then I spent all afternoon in my room and that was good, I did not have to study anything and that's why I read in a newspaper and fell asleep while I did! *lol* I took quite a long nap until my friend called me to ask when I would pick her up for tonight. So I got up and got ready!
Good thing she called this way I did not miss my daily soap... since you are gone I have way too much time for crap, well actually I don't have the time but I still do! ;-)
The meeting was so much fun, we went out for pizza and talke and laughed a lot.
I miss you and I found the perfect poem for the boh of us....! It is German that's why it might take until tomorrow to translate it! I think you will like it because it is like made for us!
ok well since you are out in nowhere and have no service I will go to bed now...

Kiss Katharina


I'll walk and walk until I meet you again and you'll be in my life forever!

I carry your love with me all the time.... 24 hours a day, 60 minutes an hour and 60 seconds a minute!! <3

27.Oktober.2007

Good evening my Lover Boy
haha that was a joke of course. School was hell today because I had  a double class German and that's always so boring that I have to pay attention that I don't fall asleep!
Ok well when I got home I saw those awesome flowers on our kitchen table and I new they came from your mom. You should have seen my mother, she loved it!
Mh, after lunch I went tutoring and that was pretty good...he seems to have a certain clue now! ;-) Happy be!
Yup and then I just kinda hung around for a little.... was good too.
Co called around 5pm and asked me if I wanted to come over for some noodles, so I said yes and it was a good night. Later we went out for coffee all together (Toni and Ina) we had tons of fun and all the laughing felt really good!
Of course I missed you today just as much as any other day, but I know you love me and I will see you soon, so I am ok! <3
Mh, well I got to go and I don't have anything else to tell you anyway... Astronomy is calling me.... o how cute! ;-)

Kisses Katharina

12.November.2007

Hi honey
I know it's been a while, but I just have been in a constantly bad mood lately!
But I don't know what happened all of a sudden I started feeling better again! Yes everything seems to be better now.
Today in school I even dreamt about you... like a day dream!
I haven't done that for a long time... I love you but it was kinda boring .... sorry I think everything is better now though!

Love you Katharina


We might be divided by the ocean, but I know you are always there... <3

heartbroken... 17.November.2007

19.November.2007

Alright
listen Mr. Knister I love you so much and that's why I want to tell you something. I don't like fighting with you and that's why we have to stop that from now on. It is hard enough to be without you but it is even harder to be without you when we are fighting with each other.
I miss you and my day could have been better I guess.
The test sucked major and I am pretty sure I flunked it. But besides that my day was ok. My school day was long but I got home and relaxed a little but then I went in my room and got some school work done.
Ok well we will talk tonight and I can't wait!

Kisses Katharina

Isn't that a picture that suits us?

Or this one, do you like it, why haven't we ever done anything like that?
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