Kaya am 19.12.2014 01:06

That was me.... down there...

am 19.12.2014 01:05

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T8wvyMzgkBI

KiwiKaya am 24.12.2013 04:09

Stil you!

It's me, your unicorn...just some years older now...
I know you hate me, I know you wont read this shit...
But I'm stil thinking of you, every day, every moment... I miss you sooo much!
I wish I could go back in time...

Last Unicorn am 15.12.2011 17:02

Bin gönülü yikmak kolay fakat birini yapmak zordur.
?? is it right ?? O.o

Last Unicorn am 16.08.2011 21:15

why dont you write back?
... =( okay... amybe it was to early... im sorry...

Last Unicorn am 15.08.2011 21:54

i will write to you tomorrow in icq... i promise... i love you, love you, looooveee you too!!!

ozzy am 15.08.2011 14:56

my only unicorn;

i was in a very bad mood nowadays, sorry for being silent.

well

i know i promised, i know we shouldnt do but, i want you back on my icq.

may we chat again?
may we have a secret?

i love you
i love you
i love you

Last Unicorn am 14.08.2011 18:31

again you are not here?!... dear i see you online in icq... but you dont even write a "hey" to me here... why???

Last Unicorn am 13.08.2011 18:34

im in bad mood and i would just disturp or anoye you.. sry.. i will not write today.. =( btu i miss you and love you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!

Last Unicorn am 11.08.2011 21:50

You are the best I've ever had! I hope you know it as well as I do!
You've captured my heart and touched my soul!

I love you always!

...Please remember it when your eyes meet mine...

ozzy am 10.08.2011 21:42

ohhh stupid me

for days i have been looking to diary and not see the new enteries. now i look at the guestbook and saw that it is under rei and kira :)


i miss you so much dear. i wish you are here with me now. bilbo is so funny nowadays. i wish we play with him together.

today it was my mesurement day for body. mmmmmmmm results are great. my body gets very nice. i wish you can see it.

i am so tired now. i will write you again tomorrow.

please be safe

i love you

your ozzy

Last Unicorn am 08.08.2011 18:37

the new little diary is... suddenly.. i dont know why and how it comes there... but it is under kira and rei...?! .. -.-\' strange =O !!!!!

am 08.08.2011 14:55

hi my dear;

nowadays my brain working like a machine. there are a lot of scientific thoughts in my mind, for 3-4 days i try to modelize and prove Darwin's evolution theory and Maltus' hypothesis by an thermodynamical approach :) i know it sounds a bit complex, and maybe it is a bit fantasy, but some brilliant ideas come to me.

i am so bappy about your presents and they are great. i wish i would be there and see the happy spark in your eyes. i miss you so much.

i find new thing in bilbo. he tickles a lot from his armpit. and i always tickle him. ohhh he gets so angry :) but it is so funny :)

i miss you darling

i love you

pls be safe

Last Unicorn am 07.08.2011 20:49

...

I dont know...... I will not write today... everything I could tell you, would be bad... only one thing was nice... Dirks b-day... We had a lot of fun! .. I miss you!!! And I will write tomorrow... for today and tomorrow... I love you!!!

Last Unicorn am 06.08.2011 22:18

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k18eQPic8JU&feature=related

Last Unicorn am 06.08.2011 22:00

6. august...

i dont know if there is somethign for today... i wrote but i cant find it here... ?!... hmm... strage and ... i hope you will find it... on the 5. page of the diary..

Last Unicorn am 04.08.2011 20:08

Cause I love you!!

you
my lighthouse the dark lake
the sea of ​​tears
you
my rock in the raging surf
the sea of ​​tears
I need you
my ship crashes into you,
your external hard, unyielding
catch me on ..
otherwise I'm drowning in
the sea of ​​tears

Last Unicorn am 03.08.2011 22:11

NOOOOOO!!! I WILL NEVER FORGET!!!

.... why are you talking like that? you met another girl, right?...
hmm...

i told you i wont come online maybe, cause it was my b-day ... yesterday... im sorry! but i wont forget you!!!

nice that you were swimming =) ... (sorry that you wish i would be with you... and i wasnt there.. ..!!)

good that your leg is good again... =) that makes ma sooo glad =) and happy =)

i will tell dave that you send a hug to him =) and ... they miss you too!!

i love you too

ozzy am 03.08.2011 21:22

hmmmm

you dont write anymore

i guess you start to forget

ozzy am 02.08.2011 16:50

my unicorn

i was at koycegiz for a weekend. with my hiking club. it was a really fun, boat trip, mud bath, swimming, hiking in mountains. and i walk inside the river, with 7 degrees cold water, than i swim in it. it was really fun.

i wish you are with me. i meet a lot of crazy guys and girls, new friends. between 15 years old and 35 years old. they are all nice people.

my leg is fine. i warm it up several times, and take some mineral pills.

i miss you all, mini, anna, your mom, dirk, oli. and please when dave come hug him for me.

i love you so much

i guess i would never stop loving you

be safe

i love you

forever yours

Last Unicorn am 31.07.2011 20:56

Sorry, we had no internet here... I will send now!

Last Unicorn am 29.07.2011 19:30

sry I had no time yesterday. I was online, yes, but I had to do something for my psychologist... Im so sorry!! Please... I will also write for yesterday today :*

I love you!!!

ozzy am 28.07.2011 08:05

my dear

mini is so naughty. i guess they can be good friends with bilbo. bilbo is an enemy of flies, all day he runs after a fly or at nights butterflies. but he is very bad at hunting, never catches, he needs mini's help.

dont worry about your father. you dont need him in your life, mom, dirk, oli and finn loves you. people care about you. and also i love you too. so so so much.

last day, when i was at gym, i was doing bicycling, and i had a very serious cramp on my left calf :( it is still hurting so much. i may cry when walking. i guess i need to see a doctor.

and your turkish is perfect :) at least better than my german :) das ist das radiergummi = bu silgi

learn that :)

i miss you so much, my nights are so empty, i wish to chat with you but i cant

please be safe dear

i love you

ozzy am 26.07.2011 14:57

my only one

i am stupid, i deleted my temporary internet files, so i lost our page, i were trying all combinations for days, at last i find it

sorry, i know you are worried

i am soo sorry about june, poor june, i will pray for moomin and june. but i guess they are happier now. playing in heaven, together again

firstly i cannot tell anyone that we broke up, because when i say it in words i will cry so so so much. and secondly, they will ask why, and i dont want to say the reason. i dont want them to dislike you, or say bad things about you, it will hurt me and also make me angry.

every thing is well in here, mom works alot these days, she is tired, but we will go a short vacation at 29-30-31. she will be relax i guess. and my friend will look after bilbo, she has a golden retriver. i hope both of them be friends.

my days are passing with working, gym and the translation. a bit busy and tiring. but i have to earn money. and i am always thinking about you. it is the situation that i dont accept. but i have to

i wish to turn back 1-2 months ago. when i dont know the situation, when we were happy

i miss you all, your mom, dirk, oli, anna, mini, please hug them each

i want to cry on their shoulders

i love you

still so much

please think me

i need it

Last Unicorn am 25.07.2011 20:46

Ohne dich kann ich nicht sein,
Ohne dich.
Mit dir bin ich auch allein,
Ohne dich.

Ohne dich zähl ich die Stunden,
Ohne dich.
Mit dir stehen die Sekunden,
lohnen nicht.

Last Unicorn am 24.07.2011 18:33

You were not writing for some days...
Why?
Is there a special reson? Is it cause you dont want to read .. or cause I hurt you to much...
???
Okay, but anyway... I love you!!!

Last Unicorn am 22.07.2011 22:39

today i wrote something.. im still sorry for yesterday, but i couldnt thing anymore... i love you!!!!

Last Unicorn am 21.07.2011 22:48

...why dont you tell your mom and your friends about it?
And...
I need you too, if I may say this... :\\'(
I am sorry, today I wont write here, I am.. too much... sad.. SORRY!! But tomorrow I will! I promise... And maybe I will explain ...
I love you!!

Your...

Last Unicorn

ozzy am 21.07.2011 13:56

thank you dear;

i had a good birthday time, friends and mom asking about you, i remain silent, i dont want to say something, but they understand something is wrong.

i have a good news for you, i can earn extra money, i am translating a browser game into turkish, and i will manage the turkish forum. they will give me some share from income. i guess it is not much but it can be good for closing the debts from my father.

i always think about you, i am not happy, i need you in my life

i love you

yours only

ozzy

Last Unicorn am 19.07.2011 22:50

I am sorry, that I didn't know, when your birthday was. :'( I hope you had a nice day...

ozzy am 19.07.2011 13:05

my dear love;


yes it was my b-day yesterday. so i couldnt write you. i was very busy. first party at work then home with mom, hakan and friends.

i am so happy that you start new therapy, it makes me worry less about you.

my love, maybe we can be friends again, or maybe more, but of yours not so quick. let time decide what will be... ok? lets see the future first.

i still love you

so so so much

yours;
özge

Last Unicorn am 18.07.2011 23:40

I dont know what to say...

How? How can we be friends if everything hurts?

And if I wont leave ... him... right now...? What?

ozzy am 17.07.2011 17:10

my dear

stomach got better, but there is still a terrible headache. bilbo is happy for your care

you can still earn. but of course not within some days. you have to work hard. but i will never leave you. at least as a friend

Last Unicorn am 16.07.2011 18:26

Okay... I know and its okay... I have to live with your decision... I know...
But how can I earn your respect bac again? If I am with ...Him... now?

am 16.07.2011 09:00

my only one;

i was just silent because i was very very sick, i get poisoned because of spoiled chicken in restaurant, my 2 days passed in toilet :) i am sorry i am disgusting :)

and dear, i will never stop loving you and would never hate you. just i am hurt... a bit unexpected time... and in a unexpected way. but i know that life is never nice without you. as i always said, maybe we just need time... time for adjusting our lives, waiting for my anger to fade away.

please tell mini to be happy again. she is so innocent and i don't want her to be upset because of us. and if i were there with you. i would kiss your scars. it will take the pain away.

i love you kaya, i love you so fucking much. still... always...

please know that, my love wont go away... but my respect... on you... i don't know... whatever you have done, cannot decrease my love for you... but i must admit, i have so little respect about you... sorry to say that... but maybe it is good in one side... you can earn it. with time and with good attitude. by never telling lies, never fooling me again etc. etc. etc.

i love you

Last Unicorn am 14.07.2011 22:19

a big burden

Please... you know I want you to be happy. Please ... I am sorry! DAMN yes I am!!! Please forgive me! When I am a burden for you, than.. I dont know...
If you are.. unhappy... than maybe its better to forget me?
*tear* Baby.. Honey.. Sweetest darling!... I am only hurting you! Everytime! Everyday! With everything... !! I am guilty... !!!
Maybe it would be better to forget me... and.. hate me.. please dont care about me, cause I didnt take care about you, when I did this.. and now I am telling you that I love you and its f*cking true! But I am not doing what you want. Still!! I will always, but if loving me is so wrong, then forget me and love another one please... I want you to be happy and glad! I dont want you to be sad!!! Not because of me..... I am just a stupid girl who made mistakes and now she doesnt know how to repair all these broken hearts.... Your heart!!...
Oh dear... I dont want to be a bruden for you... please tell me what I can do, that I wont be anymore...

But... .. okay, I think Ive said enough *but*... but..(again) I love you! I miss you! I need you! I want you! I ... You Are Everything!!!

... Sorry, I dont know what I am talking about here...
Forgive me...

I love you...

ozzy am 14.07.2011 21:35

i love you and i am missing you so much, it is a big burden to be apart from you. my nights are not happy, always you have in my mind. thinking what can we do

i love you

i only know that

Last Unicorn am 14.07.2011 20:19

Last Unicorn

I wrote something for today, but I don't know if you can find it?!.. Sometimes it is there.. sometimes not.. very strange!
Maybe if you frist look at "your wish..." and then you can see "little diary... page 3"
I don't know...

I love you!!

Last Unicorn am 13.07.2011 18:51

So, it would be okay, if I be myself there??? =O
Thank you, that you liked the video and my picture .. *blush* :)
A kiss back from your Mini! :*

ozzy am 13.07.2011 12:38

and i love mini and anna. they are so cute. please kiss them for me

and your new painting is great

i love you

ozzy am 13.07.2011 12:37

my love;

i still LOVE YOU SO MUCH

it is the truth and always will be the truth.

and dear, you are mixing turkey with Iran or Saudi Arabia. people are muslims but very light. and also women can wear what they want.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4fw7AAySI-g
see izmir

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZcXL7Je8LNk
istanbul

and i am not muslim. i dont believe in any religion. i only believe in nature. you dont have to change any of you for me. and i always say that, if you dont want to come here, i always can come there for you. i dont know... it is all your choice

Last Unicorn am 12.07.2011 21:18

Last Unicorn

....do you love me?

Last Unicorn am 12.07.2011 18:27

Last Unicorn

I know...

ozzy am 12.07.2011 09:45

love is not a menu order in a restaurant, you can\'t want both chicken and fish.

i am an honorable guy, i will never agree to be secret

Last Unicorn am 11.07.2011 19:07

One more kiss could be the best thing
One more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go, let me go

I dream ahead to what I hoped for
And I turned my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
when I know what i'm going through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
And in this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you dont know who I am
Torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
so let me go, just let me go

No Matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside
I know, I know
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

You love me but you dont know who I am
Torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you dont know who I am
so let me go, just let me go

You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me

ozzy am 11.07.2011 11:00

Die Nacht öffnet ihren Schoß
Das Kind heißt Einsamkeit
Es ist kalt und regungslos
Ich weine leise in die Zeit
Ich weiß nicht wie du heißt
Doch ich weiß dass es dich gibt
Ich weiß dass irgendwann
irgendwer mich liebt

He comes to me every night
No words are left to say
With his hands around my neck
I close my eyes and pass away

I don't know who he is
In my dreams he does exist
His passion is a kiss
And I can not resist

Ich warte hier
Don't die before I'll do
Ich warte hier
Stirb nicht vor mir

I don't know who you are
I know that you exist
Stirb nicht
Sometimes love seems so far
Ich warte hier
Your love I can't dismiss
Ich warte hier

Alle Häuser sind verschneit
Und in den Fenstern Kerzenlicht
Dort liegen sie zu zweit
Und ich
Ich warte nur auf dich

Ich warte hier
Don't die before I'll do
Ich warte hier
Stirb nicht vor mir

I don't know who you are
I know that you exist
Stirb nicht
Sometimes love seems so far
Ich warte hier
Your love I can't dismiss

Stirb nicht vor mir

Last Unicorn am 10.07.2011 21:51

yes, its really hard...... i dont know if you can trust me then, or believe me... ... i know you dont believe me... dont believe that i love you!...

ozzy am 10.07.2011 21:04

my only one, i want to see mini and anna messing around. i am sure i would laugh a lot. my offer is that;

ask your mom to contact me on facebook, tell her to convince me that you leave him, and will never do that kind of stupid think again. only your mom can make me to trust you again

Last Unicorn am 10.07.2011 18:27

Yes, please! I want to hear...
ans sorry for yesterday.. i wrote is on a paper and I will write it down here now. And also from today... Please don't be angry cause of yesterday. I really couldn't write...

ozzy am 08.07.2011 15:42

my only unicorn, i am so sorry for moomin, i am crying for her now, and i am praying for her soul. my dear kaya... i feel so lonely without you. i love you so very much. i think of an offer for you. i can only gain your trust by this way. but it can be a bit hard for you... would you like to listen it?

Last Unicorn am 08.07.2011 12:25

.... I dont know how....
:( You can't be sure....
But yes, I love you!!

ozzy am 07.07.2011 21:24

my love, i will run to you again, if i am sure that you break up with finn, but how i can be sure? how can i trust you again? i love you and i know you love me, i want you, but i need a proof

Last Unicorn am 07.07.2011 20:36

false hope...

If your hope, is a false hope, then is my hope a false hope too! (Okay, that sounds confusing, but you will understand, I am sure)
I never lied about my love to you!! Please, you have to believe me... And I cannot live without you too! I need you! I really whish, that your "false" hope, will become true!!
(I've sent it to you per mail)

ozzy am 07.07.2011 14:16

my last unicorn, i was always right when i call you "talented". i adore that photo, may you send it to may mail? and i miss them so so so much, i feel like i am apart from my family. please tell them i love each so so so much, and i hug you in my dreams each day.

i dont want you to be sad, or cry. maybe we need this... time... both of us dont know the future. maybe we will be happy again... or maybe ... i dont know... but be together in the future... i dont want to give a false hope to us, but future may make us together. i want to believe that, i am so broken, i am so hallow, but i still love you, maybe more than i have ever loved you... but i cannot forget what you did... i dont know what to do... i dont want to loose you. i cannot live without you

Last Unicorn am 06.07.2011 21:53

I can see you online in ICQ.... I want to write to you, I miss you!!! But you said I may not... :( *cry*

Last Unicorn am 06.07.2011 19:35

I am thinking of you all the time... thank you for kissing me... it would be sooo cute, soooo sweet... I love you too!! I wanna kiss you, but I know I cant!!

ozzy am 05.07.2011 21:44

my only love, when you cry, feel my lips on your red cheeks, cleansing your tears, i believe you, and i love you

Last Unicorn am 05.07.2011 20:19

Dear, I love you so much... still! ♥ Please believe me...

ozzy am 05.07.2011 11:29

my only and the last unicorn