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9. July 2011

I miss you dear!


Every word I say, is for you...

Every note I sing, is for you...

Every tone I bring, is for you...

Every breath I take, is for you...

Everyday I am only living for you...



Sorry, you know today is not saturday.

I was too drunk last night... I went out... to a party fof a friend. And yes, you know.. He... was there too... I am sorry. But that was not the reason why I went there. I just wanted some distraction. Some.. alcohol... :(
i needed it. And please, you have to believe me. Not everyday I am not online is 'cause of... Him...

I love you. I didn't want to meet him there... hmm... okay... now it's too late! Sorry!!

I loooooovvvvveeeeee you!!!!


Your...

Last Unicorn

10. July 2011

8 Days today!

It still feels like the first day without you! Damn!!

My mind is empty!

My wight is under normal now...
I know it was fast. But don't know how I can loose so much in only some days?!

it was wrong, to leave you!
And yes, please tell me about your offer. But why: "i can only gain your trust by this way" ? How do you mean?

And what could be hard for me?

But anyway I want to hear! Of course!

Thank you for praying! If she could she would also thank you!
But don't cry. I cannot see you crying you know! of course it's sad  that she is gone, but i think she feels better now.
Maybe she is somewhere and watch us. Maybe she is a little white cloud now. Or a bright shining star... :)
O I wish she would be. She always looked like a little fleecy cloud with feed and a cute little nose... :) Always she was runing in her wheel, made sometimes a "looping" and then she was so confused and had to eat! :) Then wheel again or sleep. Or sometimes, when Mini was with her cage, Mini gave "kisses" to her. Moomin liked it so much to be cleaned by Mini. But of course only through the grid. ;)
Oh Moomin... :'(

Now Mini is hunting Anna again through the house. I can hear it. But I know Anna will find a place where Mini can't reach her. Then Anna will look at her with a winnerface and Mini will cry a bit ... :)

Özge,  dearest love! Forever I will love you!!!
Please don't be sad, angry, disappointed, ... cause of yesterday!

.... I don't know but, I like this:

                                              If you feel like a bird in a cage,
                                         be smart and open it with your beak.
                                                           Don't give up!
                                   If you want to be free and fly like the others!


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Last Unicorn                                                                                                                  FOREVER!!!
 

11. July 2011

Hate me, and I will still love you!

But I can't do, what you want me to do...

I know I hurt you again!

But I can't leave him. If I could I had already left him... I had left him many month ago, but I love him too...

Also if he is... "special"... :(

You are my prince... my soul... my everything
He is my ... my... I don't know what he is, but... I love him too...

I know, you will say, that I can only love ONE.. But...

He hurts me...
You don't hurt me...

I need pain...
I need love...

I don't know what I have to do... What I can do...

I don't want to loose you or him!
You are both special for me...

You just don't know me... BOTH!

I am B-A-D!!!!!!

You know?

Yes, you know!!

He knows!!


Okay, If you really want, you can hate me, leave me, ... do what ever you want!...


BUT I LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS DO

                   Why can't you be my secret, untill I can leave him? Why?

Your...

Last Unicorn
                                                   

12. July 2011

Dear little kitten;

I know, and I have to excause me!
I am just so confused! But I know this would not excause my wish...
I am sorry!

But may I ask you something?

Do you still love me?
You are no secret. I am sorry that I thought about that!! But, you know, you are so far, soooo far away, and I am afraid! Afraid of you, your culture, everything! Afraid cause of the different! In your country, I know, every woman has to wear a headscarf, and they may not do the same as here in Denmark. Everything is different. You are Moslem, aren't you? And me not. I think I have to be a moslem, for being your girlfriend or not?! Otherwise, no one would accept me, or accept us! And I am 16 and you are 11 years older than me. Now you are 27, but on the 27th July you will already be 28. I am a child. Don't forget it!!! And you know I am difficult! Oh I am just so much afraid to be with you cause of all these facts and more! My english is still worst! I always need "Google-translation" and your english is perfect. I can't speak english... How can I comunicate with you? How can I find work there or something? I am already in Denmark or Germany not good in finding something! And also I can't speak turkish... Only Some words or sentences. And if I can't find something over there with you, you would think I am stupid and needless... You will leave me cause I can't do anything! Everyone will think I am needless and bad for you!
And so on... I could tell you sooooooo many things, what will be a problem!
And... It's just sooooo difficult to explain...


But I love you!!!!


Okay... but tell me ... do you still love me?

Please be honest...



Your...

Last Unicorn

13. July 2011

I love you!
I love you!
I love you!
I love you sooooooo much!!

I hope you know it...

Today, I don't know what I can tell you.

You know everything, about my love and my feelings...

I can tell you, that here is it raining so much, and I was outside with Mini for some hours. We took a walk and I was feeling like myself was a raindrop! Anna was also with us and mini was going crazy, 'cause she can go without leash and she may not. Otherwise she would run away or infront of a car.

I saw my new DVD today. I bought it some weeks ago..
Maybe you know, that I love Harry Potter? :D

Okay... I am boring... and what I write is boring too...

I miss you. I miss to chat with you. When I see you online in ICQ, I am always thinking of writing to you. I am watching your video of your home, and your "Supergirl" video. Again and again!

Okay, today is a bad day for writing...

I am just sad, and disapointed in myself!

I am sorry...
And thank you, that you told me about you and Turkey, and took some of my fears. ... Some...


Your...

Last Unicorn
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