Today, my head won over my heart, for my heart was too weak to carry the weight anymore. And although I feel terrible and although everything seems to fall apart, I feel relieved.
Some decisions in life can't be made, yet they have to be. Sometimes both outcomes will carry their horrible consequences and you just need to decide which one will be more bearable for you.
And those situations suck. They make you question what anything is really worth anymore and if there is a right, when everything seems so wrong. But those decisions also make you grow the most as a person.
I made my decision today. To stop. To leave. And I know, if he hadn't said all those words, I would have probably stayed. But I didn't. Now, I'm free. Funny. Free has never hurt so bad.
I know for sure, that this pain will fade, while the other pain was continuous. So for now, that is the reason why this was the right decision. Because for now, I can rest on knowing that it will get better.