i'm so tired.

every day i am tired. i am living, but i'm not alive. i don't want to eat, don't want to sleep, don't want to breathe.
he sucked out all the energy and left me on the floor, alone, ready to be taken by the night. but i don't get taken by the night.
every night, i stay up until 4 am. that's when the dark finally swallows me and protects me from the screaming silence of my room.
and then i awake, even more tired. too tired to forgive. i'm sorry that i can't forgive you.
i'm so tired, i am losing all my friends and yet, i don't have the strength to care about it.
i hurt, because of it.
pain. tired. struggling.