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26. July 2011

My love;

I bought a book today. A book for learning turkish. I already know some single words and sentences. I hope I will remember them .. :D
I feel closer to you now... at least a little little bit! :(

Actually I had a meeting with Gerrit today, you remember? But he didnt come... I was waiting 2 hours, but there was no sms, no call... And I couldnt call him. His mobile phone said, he is not available.

Daddy said to me, he doesnt want to visit me, and I may not visit him. He said, he wants no foreign in his house or something. (Thank you daddy... I am foreign? I am your daughter!!!!)
He doesnt want to talk to me further. He will contact me if he wants again. Maybe!
I dont know what going on here. Something is completely wrong!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iKtKDAXDMt4&feature=related

This song is very cute! (Also because it is with The Last Unicorn in the video)

And now....

I hope it is right... ?!

- iyi geceler
- iyi uyumak
- Bilbo bir kedi

:) ... ?!

It's not much, but it is what I can remember now... :)
But I will learn more! I promise!! <3

I love you!!! (seni seviyorum)
And I miss youuuuu so much!!! (seni özlüyorum)

Please rest well and have a good night. I wish you sweet dreams! <3
Dont work to much! Please take care and be safe!!!

Dont forget me... :'(

Your...

Last Unicorn

27. July 2011

Merhaba Özge;

Ben bütün gün sizi bekliyoruz oldum!!

Ben memnunum!

Was it right? I hope...

I miss you.

Today we were on the beach with Mini. Ane we were sailing. And met some friends on the water, and were talking ... it was a very nice day. I really wished you were with me there...

I dont know, but ... Okay forget it... Please..!

When we were at home, Mini and I were in our garden. Mini wa hunting a little frog. I made a video.. again.

Here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lMfl0dxHQDI&feature=channel_video_title

Your...

Last Unicorn

28. July - 31. July 2011

Hey...

.. I am sorry... The internet was very very bad or I had no. I dont know... Some neighbors are hacking the internet from us and its difficult to axplain. I was writing to you, and then the internet broke down. And ... hmm... I am sorry. I hope it will stay like this now. Now it is normal again.

Anna is sitting next to me... =) .. looking at me .. =D

Thursday was the 2nd meeting with my new psychologist. It was nice and we will work with my drawings and musik. Thats nice I think =)...

Friday was a lazy day. I dont know what I did. :D =(

And saturday I went to cinema to watch the last Harry Potter movie =) I cried sooo much :D =( Poor snape...

Today we were sailing. There was no wind so we were so slowly.. :D OMG.. but okay.. It was nice too... Mini jumped in the water, and swam arround the boat while we were out there... =)

Oh dear I dont know what to tell you. I miss you! Mom misses you! In 2 days its my birthday. I am so happy. I will see Dave, my brother again. He will take me with him to his home and I will stay there one night =) Ive never visited him yet. And the next day we will meet a friend of us. Kristin =)

... Next week is also Wacken-Festival.. I think you know it?..
I wish I could go there.....

But okay...


Sleep well and have nice drems dear! <3 I love you!!!


Your...

Last Unicorn

1. August 2011

Özge;

Everyday I am thinking on you! Everday I am missing you! I am still sorry for the last days, I were not writing. I think you understand it as I dont wanted, or I forgot it... But it is not like that! I really wanted, but I couldnt!!! Please dont missunderstand it!! Please!! I love you <3!!!!!!!!

I wanted to write a poem for you. And I still want. Ive tried... But everything is wrong... Without you I am wrong!!!

Time still goes so slowly without you, or when I look at the clock or the calender, time is running. Time goes and I am standing still. Just looking running people and I am looking back. I am not living! Of course I am breathing, and eating and crying, laughing, etc. but its not the same. I dont know what to do. Leave him? No..? Yes? But... Ooooohhhh I am confused!
I miss you! I miss, when you said "I love you", I miss when you said, that you miss me, I miss the funny things about Bilbo, his pantoffles. Or something he did... I miss when you told ybout your day at work. I always liked to hear about your life, your work, Bilbo, your mom, friends, sports... I hope you are fine with your hurting calf. Did you went to a doctor? What he said? Are you okay? Is it bad?...??? Oh I worry about you dear!!!!! <3   =( ..  ='(
Do you still work with it?

And how was your weekend? What did you do? Weeknd with your mom... nice... I hope?!
And Bilbo? I hope he was not to much crazy with your friend and his dog.. and his home =D .. And I hope he was a cute and sweet little kitten?!

Dear.. I am preparing something to you, and if you would read this again, you would see it.. in a few days. Sorry... Not today and not tomorrow I think... Maybe wednesday. I hope so... Maybe I will not write for tomorrow, I dont know if I can, cause of my birthday. But I will tell you...

I miss you... my love!! I love you!!! Love you!!! LOOOOVVEEEE YOU!!!!!

Sleep well and have sweet dreams darling!! Good night!!!


Your...

Last Unicorn

3. August 2011

... sorry... I will not tell everything today, cause I am very busy... tomorrow I have to go to therapy again and I have to write something for them... I am sorry...
so I will tell you tomorrow... Cause its a lot to tell you!
But I love you!!! I love you sooooooooooooooooo f*ucking much!!!!
Always! Forever!!! Please believe me!! I will never forget!!!!!...

Your...

Last Unicorn

She loves Özge very much!! <3

4. August 2011

My dearst, sweetest, cutest, best love Özge;

I am sorry for yesterday! I cant forget you, you know! But sometimes... I dont know what to tell you, or I am busy! Its a bit crazy at the moment...

Pity, that you didnt cratulated me... btu I understand what you wanted to say... Maybe you are looking for freedom. No Kaya anymore?!.. Hmm.. It made me cry. Long time you didnt say these things to me:

I love you so much
I guess i would never stop loving you
Be safe
I love you
Forever yours

Especially: Forever yours

I dont know how I have to understand it... And why you are so nice and sweet again.    ...Oh Özge!!!

And then you tell me, that I forgot you! You know it is not true!
And I am also not started to forget you! I am still crying every night. Every evening I wish you were there. The urge to write to you, when you are online in ICQ, the urge to send sms's if I cant sleep, and the urge to know what you do, what you are thinking, everything! The urge is so strong that it almost kills me if I dont do. Its awful! I miss you! I wish it could be like before. I need you!! I love you! And I need your love! Otherwise I cannot live! I really dont want to leave you behind me! And I cant stop talking to you. Even if its only here, like a diary what you can read. And I dont know if you do or dont do. Only if you write for me in my "Gästebuch". Its like talking to a wall, say I love you and it doesnt come back. There is no " I love you too" anymore!!! You understand? I need you in my life, as I need water, food, sleep, air! You are always there in my heart!
Maybe it is why it hurts so much! You cant only be in my heart. You need also to be in an other heart... (Okay, now I am confusing you... Like before when I told you some stupid things or asked you some... strange... question) I am strange, I am stupid, I am completely lunatic!

Okay, I promised you to tell you about the last two days. My birthday and the day after...

It was very nice weather here, there two days. Sun was burning down!! The half of the day, I was alone, .. lonely... Oliver was sleeping in his bed, and I could not wake him up. He alsways fighted against it. Okay, I thought, and I watched tv and was outside with Mini and Anna. In the early afternoon mom and Dirk came home from work. I got some presents... pencils, a book, and a bass-guitar! Wow, I thought, that was a very nice surprise! :)

In the evening Dave came, to drive with me to germany. To his home in Husum. (Maybe an hour's drive away from us.) We were eating ice-cream at the port and walked arround the dock. Late at night we met some friends. They show off their cars and made some "fun". Need for Speed junkies! -.-'
At Daves home we watched evan almighty... Do you know the movie? With Simon Helberg.. (Plays also in The Big Bang Theory as Howard Wolowitz)...Maybe you know it?!.. Okay, now you see me as an silly tv-junkie, who likes to watch every comedie in the television. Like "How I met your mother", "Two and a half men", "Scrubs", and so on. Yes, okay, Sometimes I like to watch them with Oli, and yes, they are really funny and great. But I am not a fan or a junkie!! (Once I was, but not today anymore.)
We slept untill 11am and then we had breakfast. Over the day we were again eating ice-cream and drinking coffee at the port. We took some pictures for mom of Husum. Just houses and the port. At 5pm I visited his ex-girlfriend Kristin ... He drove to his new girlfriend. LAte at night he drove me home again to Denmark. It was a nice, very nice trip! And he made a cake for me as a present .. soo cute! :D A chocolate-cake... (Now I am again thinking about your chocolate shower gel or something... Sorry!) *smile*

And I couldnt tell you yesterday, cause I had to write into the other diary, for my therapy. And I had not written the last days too. Cause of birthday and so on. I am sorry! Really, really sorry! I have been negledting you! I know it was wrong and not to excause! I am sorry!!!

How is your mom and Bilbo? Your friends and your mom's boyfriend?

But you can be sure, Ive never forgotten you! Never! I was just busy... ='(  ... *cry*!!

I love you dear!!

Soooooo soooo much! And I will never stop!!

Your...

Last Unicorn   <3

5. August 2011

Özge;

I miss you...

I want you...

I love you...

Today, Stefan, I told you once, I think... came to visit us. He will stay until monday. Cause of Dirks birthday, the 7.th August... Sunday...

And Now Mini, mom and I will go out... we will take a wakt together...

I dont know what to tell you... I am just bad the whole day.. and I am sad, ask mom... She wil tell the same...

I love you dear.. sleep well and take care please...


Pet Bilbo for me, please..
I miss him too....!!!

Good night sweet Özge, I really wish you were here...

I hope you will read ...
maybe.. maybe not.. I dont know if you do..
I only know if you write something in my "Gästebuch"..

Be safe ...
<3

Your...

Last Unicorn
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